It has been awhile

To the readers,

I know its been awhile since I have posted, I know I said that I would be posting something weekly and I am sorry I have been kept away by my studies. Things have been tough. Today the weather is nice, to me at least. I am being kept greatly busy with school and work. So as I talk about this, there is a show on the television called Everybody's Fine. It is sad that this man wasn't so involved in his children lives. Which this makes me think, in most of the shows (typically the older shows) I have seen the family dynamic is not the stereotypical family. But, it is a family a loving caring family, even though each one has problems most show great family environments. Granted there are those that show the opposite, they are far and few and its never right for anyone to be raised in a hostile environment. Sometimes I wonder how great it would be to record your childhood, every instance not only for your own records, but to share it with those you want. Instead of random memory sharing (vocally). I have seen some of my good friends and there families and its great to see how much love is in their lives, its great to know how amazing some parents are.

A turn to left field:

I bet you were expecting something about veterans, I know yesterday was Veteran's day and I want to say how grateful I am of the men and woman that have served our country. I talk about things I would do in hard situations, but these men and woman have done more than what I could honestly say I could do. If you see a vet of any war, on any day do a little to go out of your way to say thanks, whether it be just opening the door, or shaking their hand and saying thank you. 

Turning back:

I am nearing the end of the movie now and working on a prelab...as this movie nears an end it makes realize how much is wrong in some families. Love and caring should always be there, a parent should never force their kids to pick a field or try to live through their kids. Kids should be allowed to have a childhood. The movie ends on a good note, but at the same time, I think the line should have been everyone will be fine. 

If you are truly reading these please let me know your thoughts I am curious to know what you think and I am also curious if you have any questions for me. Since I missed a post I will try to pick something and post it a bit later tonight or tomorrow. 

The Care Of Others

The wall of brink

The edge of why

Is just beyond a strike of a hammer,

But with the power of all past stream

The mind wonders whom,

When would be safe.

Safe to them

Safe to every,

Safe to the few, the trusted ones

Safe to friends,

Safe to memories created, or of old,

Safe to family.

The dice roll not caring about my own book

Not caring what turn it will head

Just the Safety of all those around.

Stabbing me, not her, not them

Is what ethics, morals say to live for

The mind cares not for its next roll

But their next roll. 

an untitled work 1

i have seen the sun for the first time

without a thought of the walls, for i knew i had people around that saw me, for me

though it wont always be easy

for the mind goes through changes daily

changes i hope to keep, some i fear,

but some misunderstood

i saw someone i thought cared, no i was wrong again

the rest barred one within, one unseen

i see the glass eye, the one never sought i reach for it, i bump it

then comes the end, a tear shed

the eye saved

the eye he forgot

a way of life with the sun and grass, never understood before

for know he does, but now pulled

a feeling riping inside one thought to help

one pulling the war over the center

from the right to the left

still i don’t know the outcome,

still i hold my money

watching all the scars, shared

for i don’t want to be the voided one anymore.

a part of me i don’t know

a part of me none knew

one i thought dead, one i thought i stabbed for the last time,

one you thought was never created

alone i sit waiting, for the message to come in,

but i know it wont

for i know now that the sight was wrong.

the bigger question is apparent, am i a doing the right thing……………….???